Sunday, December 31, 2006

Goodbye 2006

I didn't really want to talk about my 2006, but as it was my idea in the 1st place here and Blue started it, so here i am.

What i would like to achieve in 2007 is to determine what i want for my life. i know it sounds big, but really i discovered when facing some personal issues that i simply don't know... it is an important question to answer, yet the answer is not as simple as that. it may take a year or two, but at least what i wish is to be on the right track.

2006 was a special year, full of joyful and less joyful events. what had impacted me the most is my trip to jordan, with its ups and downs... i'm thankful that i was able to do it before it's too late.

Friday, December 15, 2006

xmas spirit

i don't know why i feel happy. maybe it is the xmas spirit.... anyway it feels good.
hope u catch it too :)

Thursday, December 14, 2006

foggy (not froggy)

this morning, while going to work in the bus as i do everyday, things were different. it was very crowded, we took longer time cos of the fog and the accidents (on the me7war).
it was very strange, to see fog so intense, even when looking through the window, i felt it, the air was whity, not clear.. i felt that it is like my life, i can't see what's ahead of me like this morning i couldn't see the adds on the sides of the road. the road exists, and we just roll on ahead, following the flow.. is life like this, following the flow, going on the one track that i can't see where it leads? then at the sudden, i discover myself in a totally strange place, not knowing how i arrived there, feeling lost. lost and stranger, in the middle of noisy life, not able to catch the singing of birds, the whistle of the wind. the wind travels from place to place, carrying all feelings of the earth, people, and living beings. it should carry hope, love and peace, but all i can see is a storm turning me upside down, or should i say it is the storm inside me. what is in me? all i see is emptiness, nothing. like the car on the road in the middle of the fog, i'm trapped in the emptiness of myself...

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Rien / Nothing

Qu'y a-t-il de plus jouissif que de s'arrêter de penser? Cesser enfin ce flot débordant d'idées plus ou moins utiles ou plus ou moins importantes. S'arrêter de penser! Comme si on était mort tout en pouvant redevenir vivant. Etre le vide. Retourner aux origines suprêmes. N'être même plus quelqu'un qui ne pense à rien. Etre rien. Voilà une noble ambition.

extrait du livre "Les Fourmis" de Bernard Werber

Translation
What is more enjoying than stop thinking? to finally cease all those ideas flowing more or less useful, more or less important. Stop thinking! As if we had died while being capable to become alive again. To be the vacuum. Return to the supreme origins. Not to be someone who doesn't think of nothing. To be nothing. This is a noble ambition.

from the book "the Ants" by Bernard Werber


I was reading this book the past few days, and this passage just moved me... maybe cos i have lot of free time to think these days, and sometimes wondering too much about an issue makes it hard, cos u end up asking too many questions, not knowing the answer, not knowing what to do cos obviously thinking too much leads u to several roads and at the end u don't know which one to choose.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

adventures = ?

r u curious about the answer? try to guess...
well it is difficult, since what i'm going to say doesn't happen a lot.
ok, here is my little story, for u it will be very funny, and u'll say the poor girl, what a luck!
Here is the whole story... just don't laugh too much :)
everyday i come back to the hotel, i notice a small pizzeria near it, on the corner of the street. by the way pizzerias and taxi phone (shop for talking on the phone) r everywhere in Algeria.
I decided today, since i was a little hungry and well i thought it would be nice to go out for a little on my own, to go and have lunch there.
There was a even a movie on the tv, and i wanted to see it, but i told myself i have to go out, not stay in the hotel as almost everyday.
so, i went out and.. as soon as i stepped out in the street, it began to ran. i decided, it just just 2 steps, i can just walk quickly and arrive at the pizzeria, and have dinner and hopefully rain will stop by then. actually, things didn't go as planned. first in the few mintues i walked, i was like drowned. i always try to look to the bright side, i don't get to walk under heavy rain a lot in cairo.
but sometimes the bright is too bright that it makes u so blind and u see it dark. well it wasn't only the rain. there is a cafeteria beside the pizzeria, i just entered for shelter from the rain, and well thought i can find something to eat like sandwich or a meal. well, i was surprised that they told me there is no food, no sandwich, no french fries, nothing except croissant and drinks. they told me if i come earlier, at 3-4pm, there will be but since it is 5h30pm, everything is finished. it is so weired. in egypt, any cafe, u find food anytimes, sometimes u ask for something and there is not, but i never faced a situation like that.
anyway i decided to take a croissant and a pepsi, and to wait for the rain to stop. i waited about an hour, sitting on a chair that is not very stable, watching the sky, feeling like i'm out of the picture. it was crowded, no girls or women, young guys talking loud... and i just was sitting there thinking my sense of adventure got me to that point... then i rememberd a friend telling me that he doesn't like the number 13. i don't believe in that stuff, but at this moment, i just smiled and told myself, he is right today ;-)
well it ended that the rain became light, so i just walk out back to the hotel. and i'll probably have a yogourt or cereale for the dinner tonight.
see.. this is what adventures lead to :-)

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Destination Kourou 99

7 years ago, from 5/9 till 14/9, i had the most wonderful trip of my life.
it all began in the year 1998/1999. it was a competition between schools, and at the end, we were 9 winners, from 9 schools.
we didn't just win a 10 days trip, we won something more important, friendship, which is priceless.
i can't believe that it has been actually 7 years since we travelled. i still remember our first meeting, we barely knew each other, we were gathered by fate.
now, after 7 years, we graduated from universities, we have different carriers... each one of us had his own life but, we still have this common thing that bond us together, Kourou.
we shared great memories together, even after our return to egypt, with the famous Tomber la Chemise ;)
I miss u all, i wish i was there to celebrate.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Egyptians in the eye of Algerians

i heard many things from algerians i met about egyptians & egypt..

the most funny one is that egyptians have a big table on breakfast, eat a lot of things. and this comment was by many, not one only. they have this picture from the egyptian movies.
when i tell them that i eat bigger breakfast in hotel here than in egypt, they were surprised.
breakfast for algerians, just coffee and maybe croissant.

algerian women like to watch egyptian series (el mosalsalat). it is very important for them.
so u can imagine what is the idea about egypt.
this is the reason why it is more easy for algerians to understand egyptians rather than the contrary.

they see egypt as a big country, with a big civilization.
very crowded, live and noisy.

egyptians still preserve their identity. u see cos of the colonization by the french, they got a lot of things from the french. it affected everything from the style of life till even the language, all algerians speak french, and they use it daily also, not only arabic.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Road to Algeria

I heard that Algeria is a nice country to visit, but you should see it yourself to judge.
But to get there, it is not easy, especially if your flying in Algerian Airways. At the ticket office, they told me to be at the airport 3 hours before the flight, i think they should have said, 2 hours after the flight. ok i'm exagerating a little, but our flight was delayed 1h30. we were supposed to fly at 16h15, they annouced boarding at 17h00, we took off at 18h45 (you never forget exactly the time of everything if you are in that kind of situations.. lol)
Anyway, i thought that it was some kind of emergency that caused that delay... but i found at later that this is the normal, the plane is always delayed 1 hour at least.
The plane was very small, very crowded, no entertainment at all, no TV (only screens to see where we are in earth, to wish to just arrive as soon as possible), even no radio (this is the least in the aeroplanes, for a 4 hour trip).
The only good thing that made me forget all about that, was the good company. i was sitting next to the corridor, on my right, was a young woman and her mother, both algerians, on the other side of the corridor was a young girl, 19 years old, algerian too.
it made the trip totally different, we talked about everything, about differences between our cultures, it is very interesting.
We finally arrived, landing was a little bit hard, but we made it safely. there was a funny thing, my friends warned me that algeriansw will get up and open the hatch for hand luggage, before the plane is completely parked. and they did, and the crew had to just ask everybody to sit down several times.
anyway after finishing the passport thing and get my passport, went out to look for the driver that was supposed to pick me up. well i found a guy with a paper written on it the name of the company but with a name of another guy. so i asked him is there another driver from the company, he answered no, i asked if he knew there would be someone waiting for me, negative answer too. i went to try and look for someone else, didn't find, so i returned back again to ask, he said he is waiting for a guy. so since i had colleagues in algeria, i just contacted them and they told that the driver is in the airport. you won't believe this... it was that guy, he was supposed to pick me and 2 other guys, and had even my name in the schedule.. i don't know if he thought my name was a boy's name or what.. anyway finally after maybe an hour, we left the airport just me and one of the guys, the 3rd one whose name was on the paper didn't show up.
so.. after that long day, sleeping was the best to do :)

to be continued

Back

I officially announce Foggy's World in the new look.
Also i can say that Froggy is back :)

Monday, September 04, 2006

Bye Bye Andre

Andre Agassi, after a long career, played his last match yesterday at the US Open.
I'm not going to talk about his achivements throughout his long carrier, i'll leave it to others cos it is easy to get the records.
what i want to say is what i feel personnaly about him as a person. I began to have interest in tennis in the early 90's, and Andre was the first tennis player i cheered for. I still remember him, with his long yellow hair.
after that period, i don't have much memories about him, till i saw him playing in the French Open in 1999. and i almost didn't like him at that period, i don't know why, but when u just don't like the guy. maybe cos his image had changed from the time i watched him, maybe cos he had beaten my favourite player in that tournment (the 98 champion)...
anyway what struck me most, during that match, that though he was far beyond, he came back in the final to win it. he never gives up, he is dedicated himself to what he is doing.
so over the past few years, i was just pleased to know he his playing around even though lately not that much. He had proved that it is not all about the age, it is about the heart, though there are younger players with more energy, he was still present in tennis courts with his hardwork and his love for the game.
it is rare to find nowadays people doing their job with so much dedication, love, respect without being caught in the routine of life.
so, farewell Andre, will miss u.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

CHANGES

I changed to the new beta version of blogger as u had probably noticed.
I didn't finish yet the whole changes, i'll announce when i'll complete labeling all my posts (i didn't realize it would be a huge task :) )
I hope with the new layout, i'll have a new start.
If u have any comment about it, let me know.
By the way, i changed to the blue cos it is my favourite colour

Saturday, August 19, 2006

for the memory of the past that i'll never forget

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

sorry for not writing for a while. i'll only keep posting on my photo blog for the time being.

thanks to free soul, for those lyrics.

http://freesoul83.blogspot.com/2006/08/so-hard-to-say-goodbye.html

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

If you know what you want in life, then you have all you need to manage to make your dream come true.

Monday, July 17, 2006

no comment

i wish i had something to say that is far away from war and suffering.
i wish i was millions away from this world that seem so embarissing.
what is gone to the world? what happened to the people?
i couldn't watch tv cos changing channels didn't change the news.
even where i am, there was a bomb. i didn't hear explosion, but sure it was a reminder of what the world had turned to.
i don't care what happens next, cos this world is not worthy to live in. life is not like movies where at the end everything ends happily. no, this is not the real world. maybe i was too naive, to believe in those dreams till now, maybe i was too blind to see, or i wanted to believe what i wanted to see. i had dreams, i had hopes, i was living in a child's world.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

thought

the hardest thing is to let go not cos u hate but cos u love

first impressions on Karachi

well.. this time i'm in Asia, not Africa. i'm in Karachi, Pakistan.
Karachi is a city by the sea, the weather is hot (like egypt) but more humid. it is very crowded, population in pakistan is around 150 millions.
driving is worse than in egypt (never thought there are worst drivers than egyptians until i arrived here).
there are a lot of motorcycles, toc toc, and very colorful microbus (will try to catch in photo).
people are trying to be friendly but the problem is that not a lot talk english.. even my driver, doesn't know english very much (i thought first i'm not used to the accent of the pakistanis, but i discovered than he doesn't know english at all, just few words hotel, office...)
it is the only country i visited where they put a camera right in front of you in the airport when stamping the passport at the checkout.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Food specialities:

Attieké: it grains of Manioc cooked like couscous (equivalent to rice)
Foutou: (i don’t know how it is done or what is it exactly but also replacement of rice)
Deje: kind of juice, made of yogurt, seeds of wheet. (Very sweet).
Tchep: method to cook rice
Alloco: fried banana

Notes:
Ivorians like spices a lot.
Also they eat a lot fish and meat.
There are some Lebanese restaurants (Lebanese are everywhere in African countries in general).

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Akwaba (welcome)

i'm back to egypt after a month in Abidjan (biggest city in Côte d'Ivoire).
i decided to make a different coverage about my trip, it will not be just writing what i did or see, but about small things that touched me in a way or other.

i stayed overall 1 month (2 weeks extra). i didn't have much time to go around and discover the country cos i had a lot of work to do, but i tried as much as i can to talk about different issues with ivorians (mostly with Adam my driver).

well, i think i'll continue later, not really in mood now.

Friday, May 26, 2006

hi from abidjan

i'm currently in cote d'ivoire for work. i don't have time to post, i'll post about my trip when back in cairo after 10 days
so take care till then

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

back

it has been a while since i wrote anything due to work and life.. but here i am. i don't talk about what everybody talks about these days... not cos i don't have something to say but cos i just feel that i want to think about other things, and cos i guess that u can find discussions about all that.

never mind, i'll just write what i wanted to say today in my post :)

i was confronted to 2 persons today that made me surprised in their behavior. the 1st person, was an officer. these guys are usually poor, and in my opinion, they suffer too. he was, with 2 others, at the door of the embassy of Ivory Coast. i wanted to enter, so he showed me the way, cos to enter, u have to go in the garden around the building till u arrive to the stairs.
after i finished and i came down, i found him and showed me the way out. i thought that he did it cos he wanted to take tips (i usually don't like those situations) so i took 1LE out of my pocket but he refused (now i was embarrassed).

the 2nd person was a taxi driver. i took a taxi from Tahrir Square to Zamalek. just after i entered he said to discuss the fair saying that petrol prices are higher (in egypt they are not going up, they just made a new more expensive type of petrol but the old types still the same). he wanted a big price compared to the distance (he asked for what i would pay to go from Tahrir to Heliopolis). and i wanted to pay half what he asked for. anyway, i payed him more than i was intending to do, but he didn't like it and asked for more. i just wanted to say that maybe i won't deal with him again, but treating customers like this, will make them to dislike him.
just after that situation; i thought about the 1st guy, and the differences between the 2 situations and the 2 people.

Monday, April 24, 2006

3 explosions + holiday + sinai

does it ring bells?

i can't express what i feel. what is that world? explosions every where, people killed any time.. for what???

Saturday, April 22, 2006

looking for nothing

after working almost 24 hours a day (i only slept one hour last night, or i should say this morning), all i want is to have a time off and do NOTHING.
i don't know what i'll do the next few days, fortunatly it is vacation, so i'll take maybe a day or two not to think about the rest of the work to be done.
all i want to do is sleep, say sorry if the last few days i was not so nice with people, and enjoy the nothing and stay away from my pc.
i guess it is time to go and sleeeeeeep and enjoy no one wakes me up, (not my mom, not the alarm)
by the way, in the case i sleep till tuesday (ya reit), Happy Easter and Happy Sham El Nassim.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

song

L'hymne à l'amour by Edith Piaf (1949)

Le ciel bleu sur nous peut s'effondrer
Et la terre peut bien s'écrouler
Peu m'importe si tu m'aimes
Je me fous du monde entier
Tant qu'l'amour inond'ra mes matins
Tant que mon corps frémira sous tes mains
Peu m'importe les problèmes
Mon amour puisque tu m'aimes

J'irais jusqu'au bout du monde
Je me ferais teindre en blonde
Si tu me le demandais
J'irais décrocher la lune
J'irais voler la fortune
Si tu me le demandais

Je renierais ma patrie
Je renierais mes amis
Si tu me le demandais
On peut bien rire de moi
Je ferais n'importe quoi
Si tu me le demandais

Si un jour la vie t'arrache à moi
Si tu meurs que tu sois loin de moi
Peu m'importe si tu m'aimes
Car moi je mourrais aussi
Nous aurons pour nous l'éternité
Dans le bleu de toute l'immensité
Dans le ciel plus de problèmes
Mon amour crois-tu qu'on s'aime
Dieu réunit ceux qui s'aiment

Saturday, April 15, 2006

advise

try to benefit from the moment of happiness cos they are getting rare in this world

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

not in mood

not in mood to blog anything these days, so please accept my silence.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

why falling?

I like to know about languages and stories behind words or sentences.
today, on my home from work, there was a lot of traffic so we took more time than the usual. a strange thought crossed my mind. the saying "falling in love" is the same in english, arabic and french. (usually expressions differ from one language to another).
i was thinking, why the verb "falling"? well, i believe that it is inapropiate cos when someone is in love, he is not falling but he is going on the opposit way, as if on a high cloud in the sky, so that he doesn't see what's under him. when you are in love, you are feeling like flying away from everything but not falling at all :).
also people say that when you love, you are free. i believe that it is not that totally true cos you could be liberated but still there are new bounds in your life (even if nice bounds), the simplest thing is that when you are in love, you are not alone, there is the other person, so as much as there is freedom, as much as that you become more attached.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

msn beda2y


my friends and me were in a place with very loud music so that we couldn't hear our conversations very good... so this was the solution :)
it was really fun. Posted by Picasa

Saturday, April 01, 2006

few days ago i was faced with the question why i created my blog?
i couldn't find a specific answer to that question at that time, but i guess i discovered the answer when i checked some of what i wrote during the last year. i discovered what is life about. it is about the little things we see or feel, but without sharing all that, we lose something of it.

looking back to the past year, i feel i'm older (not just adding a number to my age), but older with all the experiences i had, the good and the bad.
i know that i changed a lot, i'm not the same person as i was.

sometimes i feel so happy, sometimes i feel so bad, but i learned that friends are there all the time, u just have to trust them, i hope i'll be able to do it and break the walls around me.

Monday, March 20, 2006

prayer

let's pray for peace and for all the people suffering in the world.
time goes by but the feelings never die.
it may take a year or two, or even five, but there is still hope alive.
so when you go to sleep tonight, say a prayer to end the fights.

surprising scene

few days ago, i was in a taxi in dokki and the street was a little crowded, so we were moving with moderate speed. we crossed by a woman, in a wheel chair, opening the driver's door to enter.
i was happy to see that. i know that there are not a lot of facilities for the disabled (almost inexistant) so i was suprised and at the same time i was excited about it so i'm sharing this with u cos instead of her disability + the lack of facilities in the country, she was able to drive a car. if i saw the same woman in another country, i wouldn't be as much surprised as to c her in cairo.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

30 September 1945

This is an extract from the journal of Dr. Michihiko Hyachiya, a Japenese doctor who was in Hiroshima when the 1st atomic bomb in the world was dropped, the 6th of august 1945.
in his journal, he writes about what he felt, what he observed (it was the 1st time to see such symptoms for radiation, they didn't know what was it at first), as a doctor and as a survivor.
this is extract is a converstion between the doctor and an american soldier who was visiting the hospital, after the japense emperor had announced the defeat and americans began to arrive in the city.

30 September 1945
... one of them standing near the window said suddenly,
- and you what do you think about the bombardement?
- i am buddhist i answered, and since childhood i was taught to resign. I lost myhome and my health but i consider myself a lucky man because my life and my wife's were preserved.
- i can't share your sentiments, said the young american soldier. in your place, i think i would make a lawsuit to the responsible country.
He was still there for a moment, contemplating the ruins before leaving.
Longtime afterwards, i had the feeling hearing him saying: "making a lawsuit to the country... making a lawsuit..."
i had the feeling that that these words will remain incomprehensible forever.

P.S. i translate this from french
it was published in Science & Vie no 1055 August 2005

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

My New Blog

i'll post in the new blog events (concerts, exhibition... ) in egypt and it will be updated weekly.
i got this idea cos i receive a lot of mails about events or read in the newspaper... so i guess it would be nice if everything is gathered in one place.
i started by putting music events... starting from next month, i'll add other events such as exhibitions, conferences...
i hope u'll enjoy it.
here is the link: http://eventsinegypt.blogspot.com/

Thursday, March 09, 2006

dedicated to my friends

i had a weird feeling today. i believe that even good friends, when time passes and each one goes in a separate way, this friendship fade a little and becomes weaker. but today, i met/ talked to friends i didn't meet for a long time (some for months), all in one day at different times.
i discovered how happy i was, and i felt that it was just like yesterday that we last met, and most important, i felt that this friendship didn't die no matter what happened, and i realized that i miss them even if i don't admit it.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

faculty of engineering, cairo univ, 100 years ago...

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

Le Clemenceau fait demi tour

Few weeks ago, there were some concerns about Le Clemenceau (a french military ship) to continue its trip to India where it was going to be dismantled and disamianted (not sure about this word). It stayed a week in Suez Canal before allowing to continue its trip to India.
And now according to La Tribune, arrived to destination, it will go back to France to reexamine it and determine how much dangerous material is on it (officially they say it is around 40 tons of amiant but some reports say it is far more than that).
but this time, the way back to France will not pass by Suez Canal, but all around Africa.

This is how things should go, even if this operation will cost a lot of money for the country, even if at the end they will discover someone hided the truth of how much it is dangerous, they are not afraid to admit they were wrong and assume theire responsabilities and show the example to the rest of the world.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

when u look back to ur life back till this moment...
time passes so fast but u just remember it as if yesterday...
things may go up and down...
u may learn new things about urself...
u may discover new feelings...
but in reality, u r just growing...
and this is the beauty of life

Monday, February 13, 2006

khadra

khadra... a girl like me... same age... egyptian... big eyes... that's all the similarities between us
she is married, she has a 6 months old boy and she has cancer and me, i'm an engineer, i work, and i'm in good health.
i met her at the hospital for cancer. she was sitting with 3 other girls (2 of them has also cancer and are as young as she is). they were eating oranges, and talking and laughing.
that day, i entered to different rooms, met people, mostly old, who are treated also from cancer. some have family members with them, a daughter, a brother, a sister, grandchildren, others are alone.
i was touched by those girls cos they kept their spirit, they said that if they don't do that, they won't get anything except sorrow. they are full of life and hope..
how many times do we lack of this hope? how many times the world seems so dark, with no future? how many times we don't notice all the blessing we have: family who take care for us, friends who love us... no body lives in a perfect world and certainly life is not a nice dream, but at least we should realize what we have, be grateful and always remember that somewhere, someone has not all what we got.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

the final

i had made my mind before the semi final match to not cheer the egyptian football team... it is not cos i'm not patriotic, but it's a decision i made after what i've seen.
and now, i just read an email asking all the fans in the stadium to say for 3 minutes before the start of the match "صلى الله على محمد .. صلى الله عليه وسلم" to protest for the denmark issue, and to tell everybody by forwarding email or sending sms so even people in houses and after the match repeat the same thing...
why not ask the players to wear a black mark for all the people killed in the ferry accident???
(by the way, during the match agains the congo, we were asked to stay one minute in silence cos it happened on the same day, but will people invite to do that?)
this has gone very far. first, this is sport, and in sport we have to forget any political, social, racism issues... sports carry the message of peace and love... i wish that people understand this one day. that refusing to play a player or a team cos from a certain country has nothing to do with sports (just one example).

why???

why all people talking about football, say that it's nice to see girls in the stadium cheering?
why there is no other source of joy except winning a football competition?
why do we forget the suffering and all we talk about is our national team?
why people want to boycott to prove their identity?
why we begin to care when there's a disaster, but after the storm calms down, we forget everything?
why is it easy to blame someone but difficult to recognize our own mistakes?
why is it difficult to live?
why is it difficult to love?
why is it easy to hate?
why people always look to criticize?
why can't we live in peace?
why am I asking these questions???

fear

what is fear? there is long list for all kind of phobias, but i think that even all this list, can't describe this feeling, it's more than that... in my opinion, the most frightening thing is not to know the reason of the fear.
fear can be not of physical things, like spiders or mice, it can be fear from certain people, fear from an old memory, fear of the future...
just don't ask me why i'm talking about this today. i didn't mean to write about fear as a subject. it's just that when i woke up, i had this weird feeling and my fingers just typed these few lines.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

made in china!!!!!


in the stadium, i bought the sticks for cheering egypt... and it was packed in that, with the instructions written in chinese (my guess) Posted by Picasa

Saturday, February 04, 2006

24

just 24 hours made me change completely my mood..
yesterday, at that time, i was in the stadium for the match between democratic republic of congo and egypt. we had to go so early cos they said they'll close the gates 3 hours before the start of the match, but i didn't care, i was happy.. and of course i was happy that we win at the end. i returned very tired but so happy.. i wanted to write about it but not anymore

today, my bro wanted to buy tickets for the next match. he went from 2pm at el ahly club in guezira, i joined him around 4pm... i can't describe how things were going.. soldiers beating crowds, crowds waiting from 11am till they start around 5pm to sell, and of course a lot of people without any order, even girls who tried to buy some tickets, including me, we couldn't, there was no place for girls to buy, a man laying in the floor almost dying..
me and my bro left around 6h30 without any ticket, and we decided we'll cheer senegal in the next match, and i decided i won't even watch the match.

repercussions

yesterday in the metro, i saw papers printed and hanged asking all muslims to boycott danes products. it doesn't matter what i believe if we should or shouldn't boycott... but what makes me angry is that this metro is the property of the public and i think this is not right to use it like that to propagate ideas... also i don't like when one girl says a small 'do3a2 el rekoub' so that everyone keeps saying it after her. sometimes i'm very tired and people just scream beside my ear. anyone is free while is not annoying anyone else. and this is a public transportation so it must be respected.

i had a sort of reverse situation, in the yahoo groups i'm subscribed to, someone forwarded an email and really there was some offensive words to christians.. and i just send one email saying plz no one forward something without reading what's in it and thinking if it will hurt anyone or not.. and i got defensive replies that what's written is not what is meant and bla bla bla..

why everything turns to violence, as if we just wait for any little thing to free the violence and hatred. do u know that in itaq, they bombed outside churches in answer for the denmark. this is just one example. i know it is not fair cos this is how is the daily life in iraq, bombs everywhere but still, the concept itself... punishing some people who has nothing to do cos of what someone did and the problem is that nobody just stops and thinks one moment.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

مجنون - وسط البلد

مجنون مجنون
و جنوني باختياري
باصرخ بعلو صوتي
يا عواصم إنهاري
عواصم مفيش مفيش
مفيش جوازات سفر
حدود مفيش مفيش
سدود بين البشر
و هو ده جنوني
و هو ده جنوني
مجنون مجنون مجنون
مفيش شمال و جنوب
جنسيتك قلبك
أوم يالا حب و دوب
والدنيا هتحبك
إلغي خطوط الطول
امسح خطوط العرض
ابيض مفيش اسود مفيش
كلنا من نبت الأرض
عواصم مفيش مفيش
مفيش جوازات سفر
عواصم مفيش مفيش
سدود بين البشر
و هو ده جنوني
و هوده جنوني
مجنون مجنون مجنون
مجنون بحب البشر
مجنون بحب الناس
مجنون لإني مفقدتش الإحساس
عواصم مفيش مفيش
مفيش جوازات سفر
حدود مفيش مفيش
سدود بين البشر
و هو ده جنوني
و هو ده جنوني
مجنون مجنون
و جنوني باختياري
باصرخ بعلو صوتي
يا عواصم إنهاري
مجنون مجنون مجنون
أنا أنا أنا مجنون
مجنون مجنون
أنا أنا أنا مجنون
مجنون مجنون

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

no comment

i received an email inviting me to participate in a poll and instructing me what to vote exactly for all questions... without getting into the details about the subject or the answers to select, my comment is that, a poll is to get opinion of people individually, not that a certain group sending mails to show that they are the best at the end... i checked the result and, as i expected, i found that the majority is for the answers selected on the mail, but i know also that this is a fake result.

when are we going to stop to act like that, thinking that the more votes we have, even if not true, we win and we are the best!!!


i went to buy tickets for the next football match of egypt. it was crowded but people were standing in lines, there were officers to make some order.

when will i see the lines every where (metro station, tickets office... )


i attended a concert of Wust El Balad at el Gomhoreya theatre. it was the 1st time for me to enter this theatre (i wanted to attend other concerts before but couldn't cos of time). i was impressed from the place, very beautiful and impressive. i didn't imagine it like that.

if u haven't been there, u should go once.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

EGYPT vs COTE D'IVOIRE

it was my 1st ever football match to attend live, but not the 1st time to enter a football stadium.
i was impressed. overall it was a nice experience though i'm not a big fan of soccer. it's totally different to assist a live match than to watch on tv. u don't feel bored at all, u hear all kind of cheers...
i was in the 3rd class cos there were no tickets available for the 2nd, but i didn't feel that there was any difference. we went earlier but already at 4pm it was so crowded to enter. the electronic gate didn't work or was too slow so they opened the normal gate, but this was en exception.

some of things i liked:
when the national antheme of cote d'ivoire was played, some people were whisteling (which i didn't like at all) the guy beside me, stood up for respect.
at some moment, some guys made bad signs with their hands for the cote d'ivoire fans who were seating under us, but other guys told them to stop it.
hearing the cheers and making the wave (i've experienced the wave thing before).
holding my big pink hand and waving.
and of course.. winning :)

some of things i didn't like:
the big screens don't show the match during the play.
they start the match without a notice.. after few seconds, i just noticed that the players are playing.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

a nice surprise

i was chatting with a friend and asked me if i would like to go to volunteer and i said yes i can, then he made me to join conversation with another friend and after a while, i discovered that we were in the same school, and that i was responsable of her team (jk) in an activity at school (jtc) about 6 years ago...
wow, time passes so quickly. i still remember her and the team, they were 10 girls in 1st preparatory, i was in 3rd secondary, 1st time for me to be jk in jtc and it was a difficult team...
so after all these years, finding out what she's doing in life (now in univ) and what she turned to be, makes me so happy.
it is difficult to see directly what we do to the youngers and what effect we make in their lives, but sure everyething we do directly or indirectly affect other lives ( even writing in a blog :) ).

Sunday, January 15, 2006

ordinary day

i wake up early to go to work, i just can't believe how i managed to wake up at 6am though i slept around 2am (it's too late for me).
my mom thought it would be very cold and told me to wear heavy cloth.
my friend called me just before i leave home to tell me that she might be late a little so that the bus driver waits for her. she managed to arrived on time. we talked all the way to the work (in smart village). it reminded me the old school days when i used to take the bus but the trip was longer. spending time on the bus make u do a lot of things, sleeping if needing to sleep, read, talk, even play (when i was little not now) or sing (when going on a trip). even riding the car with friends gives time to know them more.
i arrived at work and it was nice to meet people again after one week off, also it was nice cos some were travelling from work and arrived.
one hour left and i'll be leaving which is good cos i don't have something else to do today.. that's why i'm posting here :)
sometimes just the small ordinary things can make the person feel good.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

old letter

i decided to arrange a little in my room, to get rid of old things i don't need... and i found this old letter, i wrote it about 6 years ago... i don't remember why i wrote it, i just remember that i've received an email from a friend that was send to me and other people, and a discussion began. i don't remember what was on the email but here is what i send as a reply. i thought to share it with u so hear it is.

Hellooo everybody

the last few days i kept receiving emails from u so i decided to say my opinion though i don't know all of u.

I won't talk about the picture or faith or God but about something that some people miss it, thinking. The person should try to think to understand even if he feels that by this way he keeps asking himself questions he can't answer them. Hiding away in life in general is not a solution, el donia mosh mozakra we as7ab we shoghl we bas.. I'm not saying that we should leave everything and just think but at least trying to ask some questions and find answers for them even if we don't find those answers is something very important for growing and understanding. we are not just people that follow orders and rhythm of life.. what life would be without philosophers and inventors? people zaman didn't believe what they were saying and didn't want to hear them so they were putting them in jails to get rid of them so no one will think and not thinking is the easiest solution but not the best one.
I must confess that i don't do this a lot of times and sometimes my dad asks me something very confusing and i don't know how to answer so i say ma3rafsh or ana mosh fadya to think about that issue but i know this is not the right solution and at least i'm trying to do it.

The other thing i wanted to say is 7oreyet el kalam. i know el kalam mosh beyenfa3 ketir cos most of the time what is done is done and mahma 2olt mafish 7aga 7atetghayar bas 3ala el a2al el wa7ed bey7ess enoh 3amal 7aga we maw2efsh saket men gheir ma ya3mel ay 7aga.. ana garabt dah we 2abl keda fi mawkef we 7asset bel reda.

ana asfa law tawelt 3alekom ketir awy fi el kalam,
bye for now

Monday, January 09, 2006

painting

my parents decided to buy tools for painting and to start painting. i'm sure that they won't do it much, but who knows.
my grandmother paints beautiful paintings. i think she inspired my parents to take this step and try for fun.
i used to draw when i was a kid, i liked drawing everything. i think i began first to color with crayola. i still remember my dad teaching me to draw a table in 3 dimensions (i was 5 years old). At school, each day or week one of the girls has the chance to go and draw a big painting with water colors like painters. one day it was my turn and i was so happy and excited about it, and i drew the famous table. i had the idea to color it green, and also the background i made it green but light green (putting more water with the color so it becomes lighter) and it was really nice but.... the teacher was angry and yelled at me cos both background and table were green, though there was a difference between the 2 colors and the table was clear. i was so so sad, cos it wasn't fair.
anyway after this period of drawing, i began to draw cartoons character (copying) and i was good at it though there is no creation in that. then i remember in the boring classes, i used to draw anything on the books (usually arabic books), small writings, small things.. etc
and now, i don't think that i take much time to draw, i don't know why. i guess getting old makes the person forget a lot of things... but i know this is not an excuse..
i think after writing this, i'll look for my colors :)

Saturday, January 07, 2006

staying alone in the house, not knowing how should i feel. happy cos it is christmas? sad cos of what's going in the world? excited to see my friends? doubtful of what's next? i feel like too much things going on that at the end, i end up with nothing. very weird.
since last time i posted here, many times i wanted to write, about different things, but each time, i just kept silence.
i wanted to write about the last year, from my point of view, but it is difficult to write in few words a whole year. i had bad and good moments but i think that i'll only remember the good moments. i can't say it was my best year ever, but i know that i had great time and i'm thankful for it. the most important is to pass from one phase to another. when studying at univ or even at school, i know what i'll be doing the next year, but after this phase, it is like being lost in the middle, with too many roads to walk in. i guess that's the major thing. also starting my career and working life, and also my personal life.
i thought to talk about my hopes and wishes for the new year but i found that it is not about wishing that peace prevails or that no more disasters and people dying, or even that everything is just perfect. what i really wish for is that i don't lose what i've gained so far, friendship, love, family. maybe it sounds a little bit selfish, but i think that we can never stop the bad things from happening in the world so this time i wish for little things that i can do my best to keep.
i know that i did a lot of mistakes in my life, i wish i learn from them and don't repeat those mistakes and most important, i learnt that being honest and true is the best way even if painful.
so, now what? i think that i'll hit the publish button and that's it :)
i wish to everybody merry christmas and happy feast.