i have too much feelings i can't describe, maybe cos i can't determine exactly how i feel.
i'm going to travel very soon, for 3 months, to the Gabon for work. i can't say i'm excited that finally i'll work and i got my first mission or i'm sad cos i've to bear the consequences knowing what i may lose or what is lost already... it's like being caught in the middle of a storm, not knowing when it will end or where i'll be standing when everything calms down.